my first day

It's official, this girl is employed. No, seriously. I got a job.

I started my first ever "real" job this Wednesday as a writer for a health company in Salt Lake. It's quite the commute (hello two hours on a train every morning and evening), but I think I'm going to really like my new office. It's a great company, everyone there has been very welcoming, and I mean, I'm working as a writer in a city, how cool is that? 

On the left is my office building (I'm a little bit obsessed with it). On the right it my first day of work outfit... (excuse the mirror selfie--fashion blogging is clearly not what this is all about).

My first day may have been one of the most overwhelming and terrifying days of my life. We happened to have a ton of meetings that day, and I sat in every single one really wanting to contribute but having no idea what anyone was talking about. I also kept getting the question, "Where were you working before this?" Oh, what? You mean that you all aren't fresh out of college babies like me who have no idea what they are doing? The thought that I kept repeating to myself all day was everyone has had a first day. I just wanted to remind myself that even though I feel lost right now, that every single person in that office had been in my shoes before and hopefully they understood exactly what I was going through.

I know that it's going to be really hard being gone every day from 7:00 am to 7:00 pm, and that I am going to spend a lot of time at work being swamped and overwhelmed, and I no longer get summer breaks or long holidays (enjoy those all you kids still in school), but as one of my friends reminded me on Thursday, not many people can say that they are doing something they love (writing) and actually getting to use their skills that they worked so hard in college (bye all you haters who asked me what I was going to with an English major). 

Mmm I do love my little walk from the TRAX to my office. SLC is beautiful on fall mornings!

Thank you to those who were so supportive in the job hunt process (especially my parents who let me play all summer). I couldn't be more grateful that I took the time and waited until I found the right position. There were a few times that I started questioning if my dream of being a writer was out of reach, but here I am. I feel amazingly blessed to have this opportunity, and I can't wait to see where it takes me.

peace. love. and employment.

my figure it out Fridays

I don't have classes on Fridays which must be one of the best things that ever happened to me. Finally the English department has gotten their junk together and decided to start moving towards having no classes on Fridays. Since I have this whole extra wonderful day to get things done, I have just this past week deemed Friday, Figure It Out Friday. Since really trying to figure my life out is on my mind pretty much constantly, I thought that maybe if I dedicated a whole day to it, it would make me feel a little less mind explodingly stressed out.

So, what kind of activities happen on Figure It Out Friday?

go to the temple (my personal favorite part)

look up jobs/internships

apply for jobs/internships (my personal least favorite part)

work on making my resume perfect

work on making my portfolio perfect

email people about jobs

run errands

work on school assignments

go for drives (because I get stressed by Figure It Out Fridays and some

times I just need to relax)

and sometimes I get myself lunch (because figuring out life is hard

and I deserve it, ok?!)

and just oh so much more

Even with this whole day that I am dedicating to getting stuff figured out, it is still tough!!! Seriously what do people do with their lives when they leave college? Would someone like to employ me?? Please??? I would really like that. But, for real. If your company or a company that you know of is looking for editors or writers, I am very qualified. Since I don't edit my blog super thoroughly maybe that doesn't seem true, but in real life I'm a great editor. Trust me!

Remember that show from the 90s on Nickelodeon, Figure It Out? Don't you wish figuring your life out was like that? They just put up some blanks on a giant head, gave you clues, and then if you guessed the right words than you won really cool prizes like new roller blades? In other words why is my life not a 90s Nickelodeon game show? Instead I must dedicate an entire day, and in reality all of my brain all day everyday, to trying to "figure it out." But, let's be honest, I'm pretty sure there is almost no one who has it all figured it out. Even if you think you do, I'm sorry, but you don't (but actually if you do, tell me your secrets please).

Now, excuse me, I am going to go and try really hard to stop stressing out and try to save it for Figure It Out Friday. I'm doing my absolute best to trust that everything is going to work itself out for the best and some days that is easier than others. Woof. No matter how stressed out I get though...

this is my life and I'm happy to be living it.

peace. love. and Friday.